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Friday, July 21, 2006

omg..i feel like punching sumthin or jus breaking down!!

jus now on the way home wif hs..was one of the worst days of my life..

the worse way to wanna miss n love sumbody is noeing tt they are jus beside u but u cant do anything.. i do wanna tok to him.. play wif him like usual.. but the thing is whenever i feel like approaching him n tok to him.. i c his face and the way he toks to me.. i really couldnt help but be mean n emotionless towards him..

i didnt wanna go PEEE and i thot since it's been a long time since i last saw bestie prob i'll go look for him.. and ya noe wat.. he keep on chasing me to go to class like he doesnt wanna c me.. it's so irritating tt i swear i wanna jus flip the table over and kick all the chairs.. i seriously intended to do tt but it'd make me look like a mad kid so i decided not.. i was so pissed i left huiming there n i sat by the staircase n think abt whether is there like anything more to savour in this frenship.. i was god damn it pissed.. i duno but even my gay gang in class thinks i'm pms-ing but i'm not.. i dont.. it's jus tt i cant possibly tell them i'm god damn it upset wif the one person i thot i could depend on..

wo chu chu zai wei ta zhao xiang .. ta zui jing you you dui wo hao ma? you wei wo zhao xiang ma ? yi dian ye mei you.. so upset wif myself..

in times of desperation.. ppl tend to do crazy things.. even when they noe they shouldnt be doing it...

my emotions got the best of me as well.. i wanted to jus end my life..in sum way or another or do smth stupid to stop myself from being upset.. i guess tt's when depression n all tt nonsense n mental illnesses start..

i wonder if i die tmr.. will i regret ? regret not having to tell my loved ones tt i love them.. regret not being hardworking enuff or jus simply regretting the fact tt it was the last time i'll be seeing him n still b wif blardy upset ?

things come n go.. frenships prob too.. but if this has to go.. hope it goes away beautifully.. the way i wan it to..

regrets.. i dunno abt wat i'm gonna do wif it.. deal wif it or drop it?

living life wif regrets? still in puzzle..

i hate everything's tt's going on in my life NOW..

btw.. i broke down tt nite bestie sent me home.. i stood by the stairs n wept larhx.. pitiful pitiful me.. boohoo.. i hate life.. may God send an angel from above to save me or sprinkle some magic dust over me to make life easier or at least more comfortable..


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