JoanJoan
Jennyfurr
Sunday, November 26, 2006
oohhh.. my... i dunno but.. i dreamt of hs today.. yeah.. i dreamt of me telling him how much i like him and asking him whether we could be like how we were in the past anot.. he agreed.. hahaha.. so sweet.. then i dreamt of being with him.. i can really feel his face.. feel his lips.. it was damn real la.. i dunno y oso.. then he called his parents and invited me over to dinner.. hahaha.. *LALALA*.. then my parents noe him.. he comes over now n then to look for me.. then in my dream.. images of happiness flashed in my mind.. us laughing happily at each other.. me lying on his shoulder with him hugging me.. haha.. =PPpPpPpP~!!! so xing fu pls.. hahaha.. if only it were all real.. i dunno y.. i tried forgetting this guy for other guys.. but none compare to him.. he's the only one who can make my heartbeat beat fast..the only one who can make me sha xiao to myself at times.. he's the only one i'll go all soft and gentle with..cos i wan him back i've changed myself.. =) but.. this doesnt seem to be enuff.. cos.. yest when i told him i wanted to c his reaction abt me not toking to jason anymore cos i wanna c whether is there a chance of getting back.. n i saw his reaction.. he didnt really care or mind.. so i told him.. i noe tt i should not haf any qi dai.. nitex.. he really didnt reply me..
now tt i noe he has already forgotten abt me.. i'll jus like him secretly.. haha.. as long as i can c him.. im satisfied.. haha.. yest we went to a club at cck.. haha..auntie uncle de la.. haiyoyo.. eee.. then we were laughing at the aunties n uncles dancing.. haiyo..*shake head*.. got one even dance with only one feet coming out all the time.. damn funny.. like para para.. but heeee.... i was so happy when i get to whisper into his ear.. heee.. the feeling of being so close to him.. is like.. hahaha!! heaven!! haha.. well.. shouldnt praise him tt much.. after all.. he's only a fren now..
omg.. jeremy kept asking hsia for my password.. well.. i told hsia it was junior already. haha but not to give it to anyone.. =) i wonder if he still reads my blog.. if he really does(which he will not.. cos he doesnt really care abt me le)..im gonna be so ps lohx.. cant face him le.. *XIU XIU*.. haha.. im downloading pangya now at hsia's place.. wanna play online golf loh! hoho!!
anyways.. i;ve got so much xiao didi yuan lohx.. all the 17yr olds after me.. i kept making it clear im 18 n i dun fancy them but esp stupid jeremy keep saying love has no boundaries -.-'' pls lah.. oohhh well... jason n i didnt contact each other le eversince tt day he came to my hse downstairs drunk.. stupid ass.. i hate these kinda guys.. don even look like guy lo.. drunk like wat.. i c le.. i straight away leave n ask him don contact me le.. still dun wan leave wor.. stay at there call me call me..-.-'' well.. i called hsia to call him n ask him to go home.. so he did cos i told him he v fan.. well.. the next nite.. he smsed me tt he dun wanna give up(the more i wan him to..the more he doesnt wan to)..so.. aiyah.. i didnt sms him back.. so from like fri till now.. er.. not v long.. but he didnt contact me le.. so im free le.. hahaha..
haiz.. so sian now.. now tt i haf jeremy not looking at my entries i can say watever i wan to.. SO FREE!!! =P finally can confide in smth le.. or else i really dunno how or who to tell my feelings to.. i mean like.. hsia cant possibly always b there when i need to tell sum1 smth.. n i think she oso cannot tahan always lydat.. so.. i haf my blog.. i made it private so nobody can find it.. PLUS I HAF A PASSWORD NOW.. ting ting ting ting ting!! thankew thankew -.-.. so bored.. okok la.. tt's all for now.. cya